I wanted a change in last name. (shot)

My new account is (haru-megumi.deviantart.com)
XD; Apparently I was one letter off when I first put my name together. (joke)
Megumi means "Grace" or "blessing" in Japanese. But yeah, I think I'll no longer be updating here. (at least I hope not! XD)
I can regain my statistics again in a year or something, it doesn't really matter to me, as long as my friends know where to relocate me. I'll admit... I'll miss being known as "Miss Megami' /shot I guess I'm miss "Megumi" now. : p

It almost makes me not want to change it. (big deal, huh? haha) I'm not one for change. I usually don't like change. Well, if I don't get used to it, I can come back to this one. XD'''

Spring Blessing... A fresh, new start.

I must admit

I miss having a subscription XDD I mean, the only thing I don't like is how you have to click to view everyyy comment on a different page (instead of it just displaying all the comments on one page)

blahblahblah happy new year everyone I can't believe it's 2008 @__@ The year I would've been graduating from HS. (I'm c/o of '09) It's... amazing... to be here. I wish I would be graduating... that'd be so weird. (saying that since I went through all that chemotherapy/cancer-treatment junk)

MAN. I wrote this super-long entry for dA a couple weeks ago, but wasn't able to put it online because I didn't have internet at the time. I guess I'll just sum it up: God answered my prayer about having someone to hang out with who lives in my grandparent's neiborhood, and that'd they'd be Christian. LOL I'm still in awe over the whole thing, but it's insane. His name is Chris, and he's a "baby Christian." You would be awestruck too if you knew how God made us meet. x__x; If it weren't through my counselor's secretary, we wouldn't have become friends. It's even funnier 'cause before she introduced us, a couple weeks before when we took the state TAKS test, on the 3rd day of the History TAKS we had to sit next to eachother the last half of the day. (they rearranged us, and whatdoyaknow : p) He said he had overheard me talking to this one boy about Jesus, so Chris told me he thought, "Wow who is this girl? She knows a lot about Jesus" LOL <3
I don't have these 'secretive feelings'/some crush on him. He's nice and all, but not the kind of guy I'm looking for. Anyway, it's CRAZY because...Chris and my ex BF has all these parallel similarities...opposites... things...

OK, parallels. I typed them all out in my unposted journal-entry LOL NO I am not obsessive! I just was totally awestruck when I realized on this:

#1 Chris has the same last name as Mario. I wont type it all out, but it begins with an "R" And, they don't have the same middle name, BUT they both begin with an "A" It goes like this: MAR; CAR. /shot
#2 Mario lived with his grandmother and didn't see his mom very often. Chris lived with his mom and hasn't seen his grandma in years.
#3 Mario used to live in my grandparent's neiborhood, his house was a few blocks in front of my grandparent's house. Chris still lives in this neiborhood, and his house is a few blocks behind my grandparent's house.
#4 ...Money thing
#5 Mario's dad left his family to fend for themselves, ... Chris doesn't have his dad anymore.
#6 They both ride the bus. (shot)
#7 When my grandma met Mario, she met him in the backyard and I lied to her that Mario went to the same school as me and that we were [just] friends. When grandma met Chris, it was in the FRONTyard, and I told her [This time it's the truth] that we went to the same school together and same grade. (and that we're NOT dating!!)

His girlfriend, and my boyfriend:
#8 For Chris's ex g/f, he was faithful to her, but she was unfaithful to him. I was faithful to Mario, Mario was unfaithful to me.
#9 When Mario and I dated I wasn't a true Christian, I was a false convert. For Chris and his (now ex) g/f, he was an actual born-again Christian.
#10 I was willing to sacrifice my beliefs for Mario so we could be more alike. Chris didn't want to "give up the One who saved him" to become more like his g/f who was doing non-Christian things.
#11 Mario was doubting in God, stopped believing in Jesus, but presently claims to be Christian. Chris's ex g/f tried to be more Christian because of Chris, but now she isn't all together.
#12 Chris is now going through the exact same thing I went through when Mario left me. (His g/f broke up with him)

--Chris is a 'junior-senior' like me too.
-- Chris and Mario both have the same dark skin and dark brown hair. xX

LOL Gosh x__o When Chris and I talked that Friday night God pointed out to me all those similarities. x_X It's too much, I just can't over look it. Don't you think so too??? x,x I think God is playing a joke on me.

But ... God really did give me a new heart with new desires. He's transformed my mind. Chris is a nice looking guy, and for once I'm not all 'goo-goo gaga" over someone. I will admit I did get those tingling-lov'ish-feelings at first.. but I have my mind set on the Lord and what God wants. My heart is ever before my God, I love Him too much to take my eyes off Him. If my mind is set on getting a boyfriend, I'll no longer be so concerned about the Lord's desires. It talks about this sort of thing in 1 Corinthians, about stuff like marrying. I don't want a boyfriend right now anyway, too much obligation! I love being a free woman. BD

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ HIS News!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Someone had provoked me to anger and upset me earlier, but you know, grace is getting what you do not deserve. Because God is so gracious to those who love Him, He gives what we do not deserve...we need to do that same thing, even to those who hate us or say things against us. Jesus said "do good to those who hate you." I am not saying you need to go forth and pamper your enemies, but if the opportunity comes, do something good for them. If they say something awful to you, or if they say something indirectly to you through someone else, turn the other cheek. Don't take revenge for yourself. Vengeance is for the Lord, if anyone has done you wrong God will make sure you receive justice. But for their sake, pray for them and forgive them, because we are sinners too. Are we better than they? No, we were all born with the same (sinful) nature. I'm sure you want to be forgiven by God, Jesus said if we can't forgive men their sins God wont forgive us of our sins. (Matthew 6:15) Let us not be like the people of this world, because if you believe and wait on Him, you are a new creation, born of not a perishable but of an imperishable seed... We are not like the world, so let us love, because we who love are born of God and know God, because God is love.

Take that step back when someone hurts your feelings, or does you wrong. Give it all to God. I told God after this person wronged me, before I was about to click the "respond" button, I told Him, "OK, -takes in breath- Lord, you deal with it for me. Help me give the grace they don't deserve." The old Haru was all about fighting and having the last come back. I don't want that anymore, all that caused was stress and bitterness. Who wants to live in that way, anyway? Too much anger gives you a disease (no kidding)...You really do 'reap what you sow" in the end. I am not perfect, so I might have my moments still, but one day God will give me the ability to master it all. So I hope it's the same for you!

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. -Romans 15:13